Dear God, please take away the obsession!

I have chanted that to myself over one hundred times today so far.
I discovered God exsisted about two and a half years ago. Actually, the way i describe it to other people is "he kicked me right in the butt so i would know he was there". If he hadn't had interveined, i would more than likely be dead today. That day was about my addictions as well. For a brief moment, i almost turned my back and went to a place i could never return from.
I have heard that some people who believe in God feel like he has never "spoken" to them. I heard his words spoken through a woman that i knew as the "nice, freakishly cheerful, churchie lady" who i ran into every 4 weeks or so.
I was thinking about how after i was done my last job of the day, that i would phone the man who's number i kept in a secret place for weeks. i was going to call him and take him up on that "innocent" coffee meeting. Maybe he would tell me again  how beautiful i was, and how he wished he had me, and how he had access to any drug i could ever want. He said he loved to drink and he loved to be around people who drank. He said he could give me anything at all, and all i had to do was call him.
It was all I could think about at the end of my work day. I made the decision.
Then she walked in. "hello!" she says in her chipper, cheery voice. "It's good to see you!" I'm thinking to myself in my addict head,  "shut up, sit down and let's get this done so i can go and have fun"
What she said next stopped me in my tracks. "What is wrong with you? I can see something isn't right, and I am worried about you".
Those may not have been the exact words, but that was it. She knew that something bad was going down.
So, whether it was my own conscience, or the genuine caring look on her face, or God himself nudging me along, i told her.
i told her everything. What i was feeling, what i was about to do, how i realized that this could be the end of my marriage, my family, my job, my life. After i was all done, i felt so sad and ashamed.
She looked at me with understanding and no judgemtnt and  said "So, what do you stand to lose?"
"everything", i said. "What do you want to do?"
Boy, did it hit me then! Holy Crap! i couldn't believe that was me about to throw it all away. Even though she had an important appointment to be at, she stayed and help me erase all traces and phone numbers and held my hand when i made that final phone call. "Don't ever try to contact me again. You are poison to me and i never want to talk to or see you again. If you do call, I will give the phone to my husband."
Click.
It was done! Wow! I felt so alive and free! It was over! i looked at her and said "Thank you so much! you just saved my life!" .
She looked my square in the eye and said, without missing a beat, "No i didn't. God did".
The feeling in my body. heart, and soul, every square inch of me knew that what she said was absolutely true.
God had fianally made contact.
Here i sit 2 and a half years later and i am thankful to know that my God is there.
Before i go to bed tonight, i am sure that i will chant at least a hundred more times "Dear God, please take away the obsession!"
Amen.