here it is. i went out and drank. i didn't go to a bar and pick a fight. i didn't hang out of a speeding car screeming "WWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOO". i didn't look for hot guy to flirt with and kiss in a dark corner. i simply went out and bought some vodka and drank it in secret. i bent over that little bottle saying "precious. my precious". actually, i didn't do that either. i bought a bottle of vodka and drank it in secret. like i used to.
Why why why???? Why did it have to win? what is wrong with me? i couldn't blog. i was SO mortified at what i had done. i was sure i had finished. how did it come up and bite me in the ass like that? seriously? why can't i just stop?
i want it to stop, i want it to stop. i want it to stop. Please God, help me! i know he can. i just to let him.
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